RT Session Part 2

I went to camp early yesterday (because I had mistakenly thought that there would be an IPPT test), and was sitting in one corner feeling miserable and sorry for myself and wondering why God was putting me through this when this guy came and sit down beside me.

He was slightly plump, awkward in manner (I would learn later that his name is Andy). I think he was self-conscious because he had some dental problems, so he would cover his mouth when he spoke. He also spoke very hurriedly, and I had to ask him to repeat what he said a few times to understand what he was saying. Anyway, he started telling me about his life – the fact that he was a Poly graduate in Engineering, but had been unable to find a job in that field and was currently working as a waiter. He also shared that he was feeling dejected and useless.

Then, the subject somehow came to religion and I thought, "Maybe God wants me to do some sharing with him?", so I told him a little about Christianity.

I was truly humbled by this incident... I mean, there I was, feeling sorry for myself, and along came God to shown me that there is a purpose in all the things that happen to us, that all things are within His control and plan.

I think I need to clarify something: I am not saying that God used this encounter to show me how fortunate I am compared to Andy because I have a 'proper' job, etc. Rather, He created this opportunity for me to share the gospel, and through the process, made me realize that what was truly missing from Andy’s life was - God. And that’s the only difference between Andy and me – I have Jesus in my life.

And I am humbled and grateful because... Well, God knows I am weak and have no confidence in sharing the gospel with strangers. Yet, He has deemed it fit to create this opportunity for me to do a bit of sharing.

Usually, when asked to consider how God had been good to us (usually during cell group), I would start racking my brains and think back, "Okay, this and this didn’t go wrong, so let’s give thanks for that..."

But being humbled is another thing totally – it’s just this overwhelming feeling that the things which I fret and worry about on a daily basis are really so insignificant... And that the most precious gift anyone can receive is to know God, and that to receive such a gift is really to be blessed beyond measure. It made me realized that while I have learnt to praise, worship and give thanks, I have not known true humility.

It has also moved me to think about the things I have being praying about... Instead of asking "Please pray that presentation will be okay / Please don't let me screw this up too badly / Arrgh - please help me run fast enough, can?", think I should focus on discerning His will for me, having the obedience to submit and the strength to follow through.